Is This Thing On?

Haven't been around in awhile. Haven't really been able to find the funny in things for a bit. Been in sorta a bad mood. Not exactly sure why. Just lots of things floating around in my head. Sorta stifled any good thought process I could really put into this.

I can't really put my finger on what exactly has been bothering me. But its something just eating at my mind. Oh well.

Hope everyone had a nice Christmas. I did? Perhaps? Dunno yet. Time shall tell.

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis, my punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself; no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.

J Swavely